The Ugly Truth...

This is where I am at:

I've been miserable. I have not been the Christian I ought to be...

I've let lies into my head and completely consume me.

I have not been slow to anger.

I have not shown my friends the love they deserve.

I've been destroying myself and my relationships.

I've been selfish. Really, selfish.

I have been putting other gods before God.

I've been trying to be someone that I cannot ever be.

I am broken.

I do not live up to the expectations I put on myself and I tear myself down.

God says I am beautiful... and wonderful and worthwhile.

God says I am worth all the time in the world, and that I have something to offer.

God, give me a clean heart and a clean mind. I want to be pure in Your sight.

I want to put away the things of this world.

I want to stop listening to all the lies... please, Lord speak to me truth when lies enter my mind. Humble me... simply humble me.