One Song = Frustration?

This is really... rather random, and somewhat of a tangent... feel free to not read...

You know what I find rather annoying... I have so many words and thoughts to write down somewhere. And they all have potential to be profound and poetic... and just beautiful... but they aren’t because they are so smushed up together and don’t make any sense.

Then... I have songs... song after song, incomplete, or completed and not “documented” [in any shape or form of that word].

I’m such a perfectionist when it comes down to my “art” can I call it that?

Pictures that I take, songs that I write, my voice... I critique my voice like crazy! Everything has to be the best it can be.

I’ve been working on this one song for the past couple months. Well, here’s the thing, it’s the same emotion, and I keep coming back to it, and I have built up quite a document of pages on my computer about this one song. I’m starting to despise it, but I know it has so much potential... and my emotional pull to it keeps bringing me back to it, that I can’t stop myself.

That’s where all my thoughts collide and just make a mess of things. It’s ruining what it originally set out to be. Does that make sense?

Actually... it makes sense to me, why the song is such a confusing mess... it’s because my emotion is such a confusing mess... maybe I should label my emotion, emotions. There’s definitely more concurring then just one.

So, I’m hoping, that one day, this one song will actually become one song... and everything will come together like it should.