God's grace.... that is all I have in this life, and currently it is all I can rest in to give myself peace of mind. I've had a case of the crazies this week. Every little thing, ripping my mind apart.
I always stake my identity in the wrong things. Labels, music, friends, sickness even. Anything that I think gives me a clear idea of who and what I am and how to live.
And I've been challenged. Always, always challenged... the more I learn and the more I experience, the more I can relate to others. The more I see the pain other people are dealing with.
It breaks my heart to think about the things that some people go through. I am so thankful for the faith some of my friends have in Jesus, and the security they have in Him as well.
Yeah. They'll be the first to admit they are just as scared as I am. But they haven't given up.
I don't know where my journey is leading me... I don't know if or how my life will change drastically in the next year. I'm scared... I'm so afraid of the repercussions of my choices. But, nothing separates me from the love of my Abba. Nothing.
THAT is ALL I can rest in. THAT is my security.
Here ya go world. I struggle with my identity in God. I can't comprehend His love for me. I've always struggled with it, and I probably always will. But, I do want to be complete in Him.
I am struggling. I am not as strong as I pretend to be... please, pray for me if you will.
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