A.L.I.V.E

I've only had one class at Nyack so far. College Writing. It's going to be a lot of work, but she wants us to write in a journal about four times a week, mostly about what we are reading in class. Thankfully, I do enough writing on my own, and I don't want to write freely for a class.

She gave us a topic to write about today, something on the lines of new years resolutions.

The things that I want to get done this semester: I want to be okay with the fact that my best friends are over 1,000 miles away. I want to do things that will make God happy. I want to love on people and I want to be loved. I want to be with those friends that I left over a month ago.

This journal entry about goals and aspirations for the semester comes at a bad time. I know my head is not in the right place. I know that my heart is still in Greenville, Illinois. Eventually, my heart will come back to me. Yet, at the same time, I’m not sure I want it to. I’m not sure I want to stay. I just want this to be some sort of great lesson that God wanted to show me, and let me return to my friends. But, I know that in another 2-3 years, I would just have to leave again.

Today, God taught me that I need to look at the big picture, I need to be alive. “Always Live In View of Eternity.” I can’t make decisions based on what will make me happy today. I have to makes choices based on my future. 2 Corinthians 4:16-18 “Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.”