2010 New Year's Prayer

What will the New Year mean for me?

What will it be in terms of my walk with God?

2009 was one of the most trying years of my 19 years of life. A lot of painful things happened. But, a lot of good happened too from that painful stuff.

Through a fight with friends, I found someone I could really depend on.

Through my mom’s battle with cancer, God taught me the most valuable thing I had forgotten.

Through lessons of forgiveness, I was blessed.

I had to say goodbye, more then once this year.

Goodbyes leave scars.

I would be lying to say that I am not afraid of what this New Year holds... there will be more pain and suffering to come. There will be good as well. God will be my shelter through the storm... Proverbs 18:10 “The name of the Lord is a strong tower, the righteous run to it, and are safe.” I will go to new places, experience new things, meet new people. I will fall deeper in love with God. I will have different relationships with the people I have known.

I will grow.

I am so afraid. The unknown... is the scariest thing I have ever encountered. With all my heart, I want to hold on to the past, to the ones I love and never let go.

I don’t like change... I never have.

My prayer for 2010 is this: God, I pray for the people you have put in my life. I ask you to bless them with the love you have shown me. I ask you to use me to bless the people you have put in my life. I pray that through our sufferings, that we will turn to you for comfort. I pray that you put away our fears of the unknown, and that you remind us that your will is best.

I pray for the people I have not been in contact with for quite some time, they were once very dear to me, and to be honest... I don’t want to lose contact with the people that I care deeply for today, like I did then. Help me mend those relationships.

And God, I apologize for my bitterness towards you. Thank you for patiently waiting for me to put it aside... I’m ready God, I’m ready to be used by you. I’m ready for you to completely take my life and use it for your will, I’m ready to become completely new.