Tomorrow, I am going to start a fast... from my friends, at Greenville. It isn’t something that I necessarily want to do, but it is something that I think needs to be done, something that will be good for me.
A friend from Greenville, who has also transferred this semester has been a wonderful encouragement to me, gave me the challenge. She said “This is going to sound mean, and it will probably be hard, but I want you to consider not talking to anyone from Greenville for a week.”
The point instead, to invest myself in the people here at Nyack, to become more involved with this community. “If you do this, I would be surprised if you don’t feel differently about where you are.”
I have recognized, that my heart, is still in Greenville.
My expectations for this week are as follows: it’s going to be hard; I’m going to spend more time with God with the absence of talking to my friends; I’m going to learn more about my identity in God; I’m going to learn more about myself; I’m going to become involved.
I think that I’m hurting my friends more then I realize by telling them that I don’t want to talk to them for a week. That isn’t my intention, and it’s not like I don’t want to talk to them, and I hope they realize that.
When I told them what I was doing, I felt like I was saying goodbye to them on a different level, it hasn’t really been a goodbye because we talk so often, and this is definitive. But, it’s not forever.
I know they respect what I’m doing, just like they have respected everything I have done. I just hope this doesn’t hurt our relationships, but builds them up, when it is all done.
That’s all.
I just have to start treating Nyack like it is my home, or I will never feel comfortable here.
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