Today was a rough one. I was in a irritable mood to begin with, everything everyone did and say I just wanted to sucker-punch them. I refrained... after all I just met these people.
But, my frustrations didn't go away when I had trouble with finding my harmonys to some of the songs.
I ended up acting like a real brat. Hopefully not to my team mates, but I was really upset with myself... I hate feeling like people are waiting on me to get something right. I hate using rehearsal time for vocal parts; it's about the whole band.
My team, and the girls on the other team were really great though and they tried making me feel better and they tried giving me hugs. But, I just wasn't having it. We ended up having some free time before dinner and I was able to take a short little nap, which really improved my mood.
On my drive back to my host home, I was reminded of what we've been discussing in seminars and teams times about personal devotions and time with God. How we will really need to be dependent on that to fill us back up, because sometimes that is the only thing that we are going to have to be renewed and rejuvenated.
So, I prayed and before I came home I found a parking lot to sit in and go over my songs.
Tomorrow is another day, and even today I was reminded that His mercies are new every morning.
Thank you, Jesus.
